The big block

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!

Yes folks, my right ear has been blocked for almost three days now.

I’m not enjoying one second of it.

I can divert attention away from it if I listen to music/radio on my laptop with the balance shifted so it feels it’s not blocked, but beyond that I’m in quite an irritated state.

I went into town today for an appointment but had to cut the window shopping short afterwards as the ear thing was making me feel disorientated and wobbly.

I came home to find the fridge stocked as my girlfriend had popped home for lunch… but just missed me.

She might take tomorrow off so we’ll try and get out and do something together, which will be nice.

I’m currently listening to Steve Lamacq on 6 Music and sending in emails trying to join in.

I’m such a geek.

The weather has turned, which warms my heart, so I’m finding it easier to move around town without the extreme changes in light conditions.

Fingers crossed my ear clears up soon.

Shall hopefully post more once I feel less agitated and my mind is clearer… but right now I’m all cloudy.

Interior indecisions and outdoor pursuits

I’ve had a bit of a wasted week this week, mainly due to recovering from flu and suffering a low after missing a few days worth of anti-depressants.

I think Wednesday and Thursday I didn’t leave the house at all and come Friday I was feeling a little agoraphobic. I managed to get my butt moving anyway and had a nice afternoon in town.

I decided to buy my girlfriend some gifts and a card just to say that I love her as she’s felt a little down and lonely lately. She automatically got suspicious of me buying random gifts and now thinks I’m having an affair, lol.

Serves me right for being generous.

I think my mood is lifting again as my trip to town was fairly stress free and I was quite chatty and forthcoming with people in shops, rather than like last week when I was skulking around being a paranoid mess.

We were going to go and see Metropolis at the Showroom cinema but my girlfriend wasn’t feeling up to it and the weather was a bit crap… so we stayed in and had a takeaway, yay!!

I’m not sure what the plan is for this weekend, but I’m hoping we’re just going to take it easy. I have some personal admin to do, so I mustn’t procrastinate with that any more than I have done.

I’m glad I’m feeling like going out and doing stuff. It helps that the temperature has dropped so it won’t be too physically draining and hard getting about.

My girlfriend is still in bed as of 1130 this Saturday morning, so I think the pace of today will be relaxed.

We shall see…

Guitars, bars and emotional scars

Haven’t written here in a while, not sure why. Maybe it’s because the forum has become busy again and I’m posting there. Sorry. Not that anybody reads this anyway.

So what have I been up to?

Oh yes, I’ve managed to sell 4 guitars. There was a free listings day on eBay so I stuck them on at the last minute. I ended up getting more that I would have done at a guitar shop.

I hand delivered the Starcaster in London as I couldn’t figure out how to send it safely. I went for a few drinks whilst down there and ended up getting very drunk indeed. I had hoped to meet up with some old friends, but they either weren’t available or had moved on. I was in a state when I got home but I’m guessing it was a one off. I just had so say “goodbye” or “fuck you” to London… I didn’t do it properly two years ago.

My girlfriend is trying to be more constructive with her life but I find putting my own plans on hold as she makes hers and then cancels them a bit exhausting.

I’ve been recording music but am feeling a little low about it. I need to re-record vocals, record makeshift percussion and then go through each song one-by-one and record lead guitar parts.

We’re going on holiday soon, so I’m looking forward to that.

I went to the hospital today to see a specialist about getting a circumcision. With any luck it will increase sensation whilst having sex with my girlfriend, also make toilet duties a little less messy.

I’m feeling a bit crap this afternoon, I should have stayed in town. Then again I did have some calls to make. Not sure what we’re having for dinner, maybe nut cutlets.

We went to Hartlepool with a friend last week and had an interesting day out. Hartlepool is crap, but it was nice just to get away and spend some quiet time with my girlfriend.

I think I caught the flu last week and it destroyed my voice and lowered my mood. I missed some anti-depressants and I think that’s had a negative effect on me.

The pets are still going, but they’re a bit quiet at the moment. I keep hand feeding the guinea pig, he’s so cute. The rabbit likes to feed herself.

Well, I’ll try and post a little more regularly.

Big love!!