Stop, drop, and rock 'n' roll

Well I just walked into a door, so I think I know how this day is about to go down.

To be fair on myself, I have only just started unstopping my living room door for when I play guitar, in the hope that the deafening sound of my incompetence doesn’t resonate down the building’s stairwell. New ways of working, and all that! Also, I’m legally blind, so go fuck yourselves (if you’re laughing, that is).

I’ve started about ten new playlists on Spotify this week, so my musical thirst is definitely keeping me busy. I discovered the band Mazzy Star last night. Wow. I now know where Howling Bells got their inspiration from. Mazzy Star is one of those “Where have you been all my life?!” bands. I’m very excited.

I love that I’m always finding new bands to listen to. It’s an ocean of creativity out there, just waiting to be… erm… swam in. I can’t drink from the ocean to quench my thirst, obviously, as it’ll be salt water. Wait, can you get fresh water oceans? Isn’t there an ocean in the Near East that used to be salty but then a tsunami made it fresh. Or maybe it was the other way around. I can’t remember now.

I’ve also been going through more Guided by Voices. There’s pretty much an infinite amount of their stuff to listen to, so you’ll never get bored. Did you know frontman Robert Pollard was an elementary school teacher for fourteen years before becoming a full-time rock star? Can you IMAGINE how AWESOME it would be to turn up to class one day and find Robert FRIGGIN’ Pollard there with a piece of chalk in his hand waiting to impart knowledge to you?!

That would be a good day.

And I would totally have had a crush on him.

Oh I’ve discovered two downsides to my coming off antidepressants: a) my energy levels have dropped considerably so, while it’s making me sleep better at night, I am struggling to get my shit together in the morning, and b) my temper is now much shorter, so I tend to lose it at fairly minor things. I’m noticing I’m having to press/click/push buttons twice all the time. You know, like they don’t work the first time, but then decide to work the second. This is really getting on my wild side. Perhaps this happens all the time, but I don’t usually notice it. I dunno. But it’s pissing me off, basically.

I also seem to be making a lot more mistakes on guitar. Only I can get worse at something I practice every day at.

Only me.

I’m also finding that my eyesight has dropped a considerable step recently, which I don’t think is helping my unstable mood. I’m sure I’ll adjust to the extra loss of vision and get used to my post-medication state of mind, but it’ll take some time.

I ordered a burger last night, by the way. I think I mentioned I was going to takeaway the shit out of Saturday night. It was, indeed, a tasty burger.

Do stay in touch, darlings.

Toodles!