Lacking direction

I feel a little pulled apart today.

I need to look for work but I’m not sure where.

I want to move up to Sheffield but my financial ties are here. I’m staying with dad in this town but I’m not sure if he will kick me out soon. I have a house standing empty in another town but that might get repossessed.

Where do I focus my efforts?

I don’t know.

Perhaps the Citizen’s Advice Bureau will show me the way tomorrow. My greatest fear is that they won’t and I will walk away feeling more hopeless than ever.

I don’t know what to do.

Maybe I should wait until after I’ve seen them, but my girlfriend keeps asking me what I’m doing to move closer to her.

I have no real answer to give her as I don’t even know myself. What do I say?

I want to hide from everything.