I’ve got to hop on the train to Bury St Edmunds tomorrow for an appointment. I don’t think I’ve been there before but I wish it was in Cambridge, which is sort of equidistance from where I live and more familiar.
I always get a bit nervous before I have to go to a new town or city and have no idea what to expect. I’ve been trawling Google Maps to make sure I know where I’m going.
Fingers crossed the savvy locals don’t enjoy hoodwinking young impressionable country boys such as myself... I don’t want to get mixed up with seedy sex traffickers or pill popping revellers.
I’ll make sure I stop off for a black coffee and an egg butty or two.
If I don’t make it back I want my collection of belly button fluff to be donated to medical research!!
Monday, 31 May 2010
Art or product… what’s in a name?
So when does a band no longer become that band? What defined them in the first place? Was it the frontman, the key musicians, the songwriter or simply the owner of the brand copyright?
The most recent Guns N Roses album was deemed by many fans and critics to be merely an Axl Rose solo album with the Guns name printed on it. Surely there’s no GNR without Slash? But then again Velvet Revolver was essentially GNR without it’s frontman and voice but nobody seemed to make a fuss about the name there… although there was a wry smile on the faces of those who knew.
Oasis had a constantly shifting rhythm section for over a decade but it didn’t seem to matter as long as you had Liam and Noel present… the voice and the “songsmith”. Was it the shambling original Defiantly Maybe members that endeared a nation or the seasoned professionals that joined later on? Did it matter? The last two of their albums were filled up with more and more non-Noel Gallagher songs, so was his input so crucial anymore?
And what of the pop diva troupe Sugarbabes that has non of it’s original members in it’s current line-up? I assume non of them ever wrote songs and non of them are musicians (apart from their voices). So does the person fronting the group/band even matter so much if they can all be lifted out and replaced? Could you have had the Spice Girls with anybody involved just as long as they had catchy nicknames?
Queen are at least being fairly honest about the state of things and separating themselves in name from their new “voice”. They bill themselves as Queen + Paul Rodgers nowadays, which feels a little more respectful to the memory of Freddie Mercury.
In 1996 Guided By Voices split up and Robert Pollard continued the brand with a backing band consisting of an existing group called Cobra Verde. So was this the band Cobra Verde with a new frontman or a solo project by Pollard under the banner of GBV? But then again had GBV always been Robert Pollard with a constantly shifting backing band? Is he the heart and soul of the group?
A few British bands from the 80s have been fighting for ownership of their brand during the recent nostalgia craze. Cash has been available for old favourites from the past to reform but since a lot of them split for bitter money reasons they now have to slightly re-name themselves as if becoming their own covers band… just with actual original members.
In film you have a similar issue with the “auteur” director. Stanley Kubrick was drafted in to direct Spartacus at the last minute but his mark is nowhere to be seen. He was just a director for hire. Spielberg has a very distinctive visual style but has been working with the same composer and editor for most of his career, so how much of his craft is down to them?
There’s also the nagging issue of regional identity where a film is largely made in a certain country with local talent but will forever be know of as an American film due to the financing. Look at the first two Alien films, basically British films which always turn up on Top Greatest American Films charts. The same could be said about the rush of films made in Australia in the late 90s and early 00s. The Matrix and Star Wars prequels were handled by crews down under, are we to forget their imprint?
There is a central creative force in all these examples that makes a band or a film what it is. The writing and the inception often has a point of origin and is picked up by a trusted team to flesh out it’s creation. Mainstream media is a collaborative process after all, even great historical artists often had a group of assistants working for them while they simply directed the piece. In some instances though it is just a legal matter that defines a creative brand. These instances are often fairly cynical affairs and those dedicated to the purest form of that endeavour may not be convinced by an exercise in naked profiteering.
I suppose an individual who enjoys a piece of creative work must decide how it is defined… and whether it really matters. In the digital age the importance of cover art is shown up for what it is when a listener or viewer is left with just the music or film. Did it ever really matter how it was packaged, or were we just told it mattered?
The debate continues!!
The most recent Guns N Roses album was deemed by many fans and critics to be merely an Axl Rose solo album with the Guns name printed on it. Surely there’s no GNR without Slash? But then again Velvet Revolver was essentially GNR without it’s frontman and voice but nobody seemed to make a fuss about the name there… although there was a wry smile on the faces of those who knew.
Oasis had a constantly shifting rhythm section for over a decade but it didn’t seem to matter as long as you had Liam and Noel present… the voice and the “songsmith”. Was it the shambling original Defiantly Maybe members that endeared a nation or the seasoned professionals that joined later on? Did it matter? The last two of their albums were filled up with more and more non-Noel Gallagher songs, so was his input so crucial anymore?
And what of the pop diva troupe Sugarbabes that has non of it’s original members in it’s current line-up? I assume non of them ever wrote songs and non of them are musicians (apart from their voices). So does the person fronting the group/band even matter so much if they can all be lifted out and replaced? Could you have had the Spice Girls with anybody involved just as long as they had catchy nicknames?
Queen are at least being fairly honest about the state of things and separating themselves in name from their new “voice”. They bill themselves as Queen + Paul Rodgers nowadays, which feels a little more respectful to the memory of Freddie Mercury.
In 1996 Guided By Voices split up and Robert Pollard continued the brand with a backing band consisting of an existing group called Cobra Verde. So was this the band Cobra Verde with a new frontman or a solo project by Pollard under the banner of GBV? But then again had GBV always been Robert Pollard with a constantly shifting backing band? Is he the heart and soul of the group?
A few British bands from the 80s have been fighting for ownership of their brand during the recent nostalgia craze. Cash has been available for old favourites from the past to reform but since a lot of them split for bitter money reasons they now have to slightly re-name themselves as if becoming their own covers band… just with actual original members.
In film you have a similar issue with the “auteur” director. Stanley Kubrick was drafted in to direct Spartacus at the last minute but his mark is nowhere to be seen. He was just a director for hire. Spielberg has a very distinctive visual style but has been working with the same composer and editor for most of his career, so how much of his craft is down to them?
There’s also the nagging issue of regional identity where a film is largely made in a certain country with local talent but will forever be know of as an American film due to the financing. Look at the first two Alien films, basically British films which always turn up on Top Greatest American Films charts. The same could be said about the rush of films made in Australia in the late 90s and early 00s. The Matrix and Star Wars prequels were handled by crews down under, are we to forget their imprint?
There is a central creative force in all these examples that makes a band or a film what it is. The writing and the inception often has a point of origin and is picked up by a trusted team to flesh out it’s creation. Mainstream media is a collaborative process after all, even great historical artists often had a group of assistants working for them while they simply directed the piece. In some instances though it is just a legal matter that defines a creative brand. These instances are often fairly cynical affairs and those dedicated to the purest form of that endeavour may not be convinced by an exercise in naked profiteering.
I suppose an individual who enjoys a piece of creative work must decide how it is defined… and whether it really matters. In the digital age the importance of cover art is shown up for what it is when a listener or viewer is left with just the music or film. Did it ever really matter how it was packaged, or were we just told it mattered?
The debate continues!!
Sunday, 30 May 2010
Collected thoughts on Guided By Voices
I’m obsessed with GBV now.
I can’t work out whether it’s the vocals, the melodies, the lo-fi production or the energy and spirit that leaks out of every single song that’s captured me.
I love the confidence they had to just put out EVERYTHING. That even a track consisting of just a discarded bass line has made it to one record. Now that’s brave. I could never “rate” one of their albums like I would with another band as they seem to defy criticism. Part of the aesthetic and art of what they do is to put you on a rollercoaster of musical experiments… the fact that they fail is often why they work. It’s all part of the experience.
Some of the melodies feel like a throwback to a Beatles style simplicity which is quite endearing. Then they’ll chuck in a disturbing and hypnotic experiment which throws you off track.
I think Robert Pollard has the most perfect rock voice, I could listen to him just reading the phone book (actually that might appear on one album, lol). There’s a demo track where he introduces it and his lovely smooth Ohio drawl is just so yummy. It’s suck a nice moment as he laments “I’m not sure what’ll happen with this, but…” and then cracks on with singing it. Very nice.
I sometimes sit their listening to them wondering if it’s all just nonsense and I’m a fool for loving it so much. Are they just a crap pub band who got lucky or cult genius’ who will never get the mainstream recognition they deserve?
Probably a bit of both.
There’s just so much of it to listen to, so many albums, so many rarities collections. I’ve been listening to them for two years now and I’ve still only bought half their output… and I’ve got seven albums and a four disc rarities box set (the first of three).
That said, the fairly consistent set of original floating band members dissolved after their ninth album Under The Bushes Under The Stars and unofficial (and now seemingly rare) fanclub-only album Tonics & Twisted Chasers. After these releases the Guided By Voices brand seemed to lose it’s grounding and Robert Pollard even had the new line-up go into a proper studio with an experienced producer to record Do The Collapse where Teenage FBI features.
They recorded Under The Bushes Under The Stars in professional studios but those results sound a little more pure and retain the rough edge that makes them so interesting. Do The Collapse sounds like an eerily well produced thing with big silences and clean audio tracks. GBV albums are usually full of mistakes and atmospheric hissings and the sound of band members stumbling about the place drunk, lol. It’s a very weird listen, far too clean shaven for me.
I think Bob took the soul of GBV into his solo work which began after the old line-up said goodbye, so I might follow that instead. I’ve still got two Suitcase boxsets to chase up though, so my journey isn’t over yet… I hope.
I’m a geek for it all. But I know one day I’ll pass through it and move on, I’m not looking forward to that day.
I can’t work out whether it’s the vocals, the melodies, the lo-fi production or the energy and spirit that leaks out of every single song that’s captured me.
I love the confidence they had to just put out EVERYTHING. That even a track consisting of just a discarded bass line has made it to one record. Now that’s brave. I could never “rate” one of their albums like I would with another band as they seem to defy criticism. Part of the aesthetic and art of what they do is to put you on a rollercoaster of musical experiments… the fact that they fail is often why they work. It’s all part of the experience.
Some of the melodies feel like a throwback to a Beatles style simplicity which is quite endearing. Then they’ll chuck in a disturbing and hypnotic experiment which throws you off track.
I think Robert Pollard has the most perfect rock voice, I could listen to him just reading the phone book (actually that might appear on one album, lol). There’s a demo track where he introduces it and his lovely smooth Ohio drawl is just so yummy. It’s suck a nice moment as he laments “I’m not sure what’ll happen with this, but…” and then cracks on with singing it. Very nice.
I sometimes sit their listening to them wondering if it’s all just nonsense and I’m a fool for loving it so much. Are they just a crap pub band who got lucky or cult genius’ who will never get the mainstream recognition they deserve?
Probably a bit of both.
There’s just so much of it to listen to, so many albums, so many rarities collections. I’ve been listening to them for two years now and I’ve still only bought half their output… and I’ve got seven albums and a four disc rarities box set (the first of three).
That said, the fairly consistent set of original floating band members dissolved after their ninth album Under The Bushes Under The Stars and unofficial (and now seemingly rare) fanclub-only album Tonics & Twisted Chasers. After these releases the Guided By Voices brand seemed to lose it’s grounding and Robert Pollard even had the new line-up go into a proper studio with an experienced producer to record Do The Collapse where Teenage FBI features.
They recorded Under The Bushes Under The Stars in professional studios but those results sound a little more pure and retain the rough edge that makes them so interesting. Do The Collapse sounds like an eerily well produced thing with big silences and clean audio tracks. GBV albums are usually full of mistakes and atmospheric hissings and the sound of band members stumbling about the place drunk, lol. It’s a very weird listen, far too clean shaven for me.
I think Bob took the soul of GBV into his solo work which began after the old line-up said goodbye, so I might follow that instead. I’ve still got two Suitcase boxsets to chase up though, so my journey isn’t over yet… I hope.
I’m a geek for it all. But I know one day I’ll pass through it and move on, I’m not looking forward to that day.
Saturday, 29 May 2010
Home alone in a storm
Dad’s gone off to Paris for the weekend with his new girlfriend and I am, essentially house-sitting… even though I was going to be here anyway, lol.
The weather has finally turned and it’s now really grey and rainy and windy outside. A bit gloomy but at least the oppressive heat has gone.
I made some important calls on Friday to claim voluntary repossession of my house. Now I think I just have to sign some forms to that effect. Need to go over to my house to pick them up.
Financial problems are deepening but at least I won’t be in limbo anymore. Me and my girlfriend want our lives to move rather than be stuck in an uncertain fog.
Who knows where all this might lead.
I’m boiling rice for a curry. Not sure what the kormas from Iceland will be like but I’ll give it a go. I usually prefer slightly spicier ones, but I’m open minded.
Been listening to Guided By Voices a lot. My friend’s new band sounds like them, I am a little envious. I wish my throat would clear up so I can sing properly. I want to start recording again.
I’ve sent off a housing form to Sheffield to get a council place. I will also apply to a local residential college. Fingers crossed I’m not living on the street in a years time. It wouldn’t surprise me though.
My dad and I are chatting a bit more, I’m hoping he has relaxed a little and knows I am staying off the alcohol. The tablets must have kicked in and are doing my head good, I’m not getting such drastic lows. We’ll see.
The weather has finally turned and it’s now really grey and rainy and windy outside. A bit gloomy but at least the oppressive heat has gone.
I made some important calls on Friday to claim voluntary repossession of my house. Now I think I just have to sign some forms to that effect. Need to go over to my house to pick them up.
Financial problems are deepening but at least I won’t be in limbo anymore. Me and my girlfriend want our lives to move rather than be stuck in an uncertain fog.
Who knows where all this might lead.
I’m boiling rice for a curry. Not sure what the kormas from Iceland will be like but I’ll give it a go. I usually prefer slightly spicier ones, but I’m open minded.
Been listening to Guided By Voices a lot. My friend’s new band sounds like them, I am a little envious. I wish my throat would clear up so I can sing properly. I want to start recording again.
I’ve sent off a housing form to Sheffield to get a council place. I will also apply to a local residential college. Fingers crossed I’m not living on the street in a years time. It wouldn’t surprise me though.
My dad and I are chatting a bit more, I’m hoping he has relaxed a little and knows I am staying off the alcohol. The tablets must have kicked in and are doing my head good, I’m not getting such drastic lows. We’ll see.
Wednesday, 26 May 2010
A summary of sorts
left my job after eight years in August after being off sick with stress and depression for a year. They weren’t too keen to find me a new job internally and I wasn’t too keen on returning to work in London and didn’t like being tied to a job I no longer wanted.
During being off I tried to sell my house in Cambridgeshire but, because of a small print problem, nobody can get a mortgage on it and, apparently, I shouldn’t have been able to get one for it either.
I was staying with my girlfriend up in Sheffield between 2008 and 2009 whilst trying to sort things out but, because of money drying up and issues with where she’s living, I’ve been having to stay with my parents since December. Mum first, now dad.
Since the house sale fell through this February I was planning on moving back in and finding a job locally but work hasn’t been particularly forthcoming and, to be honest, I want to be back in Sheffield with my girlfriend.
The next mortgage payment will be the third I’ve missed and all the other bills are having to wait. I’ve decided to let the house get repossessed as, well, it won’t sell, I can’t afford it and I don’t want it.
I’m hoping to get a council flat up in Sheffield so that me and my girlfriend can be closer together. I might have to be declared bankrupt because of all this but, after nearly two years of living in a state of limbo not knowing what’s going to happen to me, I want an end to this stage of my life and to start afresh.
I’ve been talking to the CAB about all this and I’m getting good advice and support. Plus I’ve just told my dad what’s going to happen so hopefully he can offer help where he can.
I’ve been practically homeless since December and am looking forward to finally moving my life forward, rather than just floating in an uncertain mist.
I just want to be where I feel at home with the person I love, even if it means everything else is taken away.
During being off I tried to sell my house in Cambridgeshire but, because of a small print problem, nobody can get a mortgage on it and, apparently, I shouldn’t have been able to get one for it either.
I was staying with my girlfriend up in Sheffield between 2008 and 2009 whilst trying to sort things out but, because of money drying up and issues with where she’s living, I’ve been having to stay with my parents since December. Mum first, now dad.
Since the house sale fell through this February I was planning on moving back in and finding a job locally but work hasn’t been particularly forthcoming and, to be honest, I want to be back in Sheffield with my girlfriend.
The next mortgage payment will be the third I’ve missed and all the other bills are having to wait. I’ve decided to let the house get repossessed as, well, it won’t sell, I can’t afford it and I don’t want it.
I’m hoping to get a council flat up in Sheffield so that me and my girlfriend can be closer together. I might have to be declared bankrupt because of all this but, after nearly two years of living in a state of limbo not knowing what’s going to happen to me, I want an end to this stage of my life and to start afresh.
I’ve been talking to the CAB about all this and I’m getting good advice and support. Plus I’ve just told my dad what’s going to happen so hopefully he can offer help where he can.
I’ve been practically homeless since December and am looking forward to finally moving my life forward, rather than just floating in an uncertain mist.
I just want to be where I feel at home with the person I love, even if it means everything else is taken away.
Monday, 24 May 2010
Against doctor's orders
Well a couple of weeks ago I thought I had come down with flu, complete with a nasty sore throat. Two weeks later the sore throat persisted and I could feel lumps down there, so I thought it might be a good idea to see the doctor.
The morning before setting off to Sheffield to stay with my girlfriend for me birthday the doctor said I had a “quinsy” which is a pustule infection (not the crime solving dead person poker as seen on telly) that could inflame and close off the throat, eek!
He tried to refer me to a local hospital for surgery and spoil my travel plans as apparently it was a “same day emergency” but I said, much to his annoyance, that I didn’t know where the local hospital was but did know where the Sheffield one was which is where I was on my way to.
He said ultimately it was up to me and so I gambled on not dying within the next few hours and jumped on the train up north.
I met my girlfriend and we went to the hospital together where I was told I only had tonsillitis and was given some antibiotics and advised to get painkillers (good idea).
So I spent my birthday weekend shoving pills down my aching throat and not being able to kiss my lovely girlfriend (we did sneak a couple though, complete with disclaimer from me just in case she caught it).
Then, as if that wasn’t enough, on my birthday I had diarrhoea which has yet to cease. Yay!
Maybe next year will be less painful.
It was all worth it just to see my girlfriend for a few days though, so there was a plus side.
The morning before setting off to Sheffield to stay with my girlfriend for me birthday the doctor said I had a “quinsy” which is a pustule infection (not the crime solving dead person poker as seen on telly) that could inflame and close off the throat, eek!
He tried to refer me to a local hospital for surgery and spoil my travel plans as apparently it was a “same day emergency” but I said, much to his annoyance, that I didn’t know where the local hospital was but did know where the Sheffield one was which is where I was on my way to.
He said ultimately it was up to me and so I gambled on not dying within the next few hours and jumped on the train up north.
I met my girlfriend and we went to the hospital together where I was told I only had tonsillitis and was given some antibiotics and advised to get painkillers (good idea).
So I spent my birthday weekend shoving pills down my aching throat and not being able to kiss my lovely girlfriend (we did sneak a couple though, complete with disclaimer from me just in case she caught it).
Then, as if that wasn’t enough, on my birthday I had diarrhoea which has yet to cease. Yay!
Maybe next year will be less painful.
It was all worth it just to see my girlfriend for a few days though, so there was a plus side.
Sunday, 16 May 2010
On the "Nebraska" cutting-room floor
I’ve been struggling with Bruce Springsteen for a while now. I think it’s because the sound of the E Street Band and him together is quite campy and a little too “big band” for my tastes. His great early works almost seem to have the flavour of Broadway musicals. I think that’s how I shall approach them from now on: as pieces of pure theatre rather than rock and roll. A bit like Rufus Wainwright, who I adore.
Anyway, the one Springsteen album I have really warmed to is “Nebraska” which is stripped down acoustic fare. It’s an immensely beautiful album and undeniably powerful in it’s simplicity. Well I read that a demo of “Born In The USA” had been recorded at the same time as the other “Nebraska” tracks and in the same style. So I went looking for it.
On Springsteen’s b-sides and rarities collection “Tracks” is this acoustic “Born In The USA” and what a gem it is. Shorn of it’s later keyboard and gruff ugliness, this acoustic (although there is a little electric guitar in there too) demo is simply another beast altogether. A lot more dignified than the album/single version (that we all know) would come to be.
Marvellous...
Anyway, the one Springsteen album I have really warmed to is “Nebraska” which is stripped down acoustic fare. It’s an immensely beautiful album and undeniably powerful in it’s simplicity. Well I read that a demo of “Born In The USA” had been recorded at the same time as the other “Nebraska” tracks and in the same style. So I went looking for it.
On Springsteen’s b-sides and rarities collection “Tracks” is this acoustic “Born In The USA” and what a gem it is. Shorn of it’s later keyboard and gruff ugliness, this acoustic (although there is a little electric guitar in there too) demo is simply another beast altogether. A lot more dignified than the album/single version (that we all know) would come to be.
Marvellous...
Thursday, 13 May 2010
The negative Robin Hood reviews
The bad reviews I keep reading for this Ridley Scott/Russell Crowe version of the Robin Hood myth are just making me want to go and see it more.
The problem most American critics seem to have is that it isn’t the “classic Hollywood” treatment of the tale… with tights, pointy shoes and stick fights over rivers. The problem with that is that there never was a set story to betray and I think what Rid and his team have tried to do is show us what did happen back then and from that work out where the legend came from.
But since the now rather tired series of events that is apparently the “set” Robin Hood legend is all that is fixed in the American consciousness it ain’t going down too well over there.
I get the feeling British reviewers sick of the same old plot mechanics will favour this retelling.
The problem most American critics seem to have is that it isn’t the “classic Hollywood” treatment of the tale… with tights, pointy shoes and stick fights over rivers. The problem with that is that there never was a set story to betray and I think what Rid and his team have tried to do is show us what did happen back then and from that work out where the legend came from.
But since the now rather tired series of events that is apparently the “set” Robin Hood legend is all that is fixed in the American consciousness it ain’t going down too well over there.
I get the feeling British reviewers sick of the same old plot mechanics will favour this retelling.
Wednesday, 12 May 2010
Support
Just been in touch with a local charity who support people with visual impairments. I thought we were going to just talk about job searching but she ended up asking me about my entire situation. I got quite emotional whilst explaining everything but she was very good at understanding the details considering how complicated the whole mess is.
She said they will get in touch in a couple of weeks, I just hope I have that much time.
She said they will get in touch in a couple of weeks, I just hope I have that much time.
Flu
I have not been well since Friday. On top of everything else I seem to have been struck by a nasty bought of flu. Aches all over, dizziness and loss of appetite ruled over the weekend. The last couple of days I’ve had headaches and a sore throat.
I feel like staying in to keep out of the sun because I’m worried that it might inflame my headache. So I’m cowering inside like Gollum eating raw fish… well, baked ham and noodles, lol.
Dad has been too busy to take me over to my house. I need to pick up my post from there to find out what financial state the property is in so I can get advice from the CAB. Until I can get over there the future is fairly uncertain.
I miss my girlfriend and need a cuddle, especially after feeling unwell for so many days. We both seem to wilt when we are not together. I have a picture of us two on my desktop and it makes me smile, but the fact that we are apart geographically makes it somehow a sad picture.
I hope I recover fully and can get more help from my dad. I do keep asking him but he seems too busy. I’m not sure what to do on that front. He is always tired and short-tempered when he gets home so I’m never to sure whether to ask him things.
I feel more and more morbid the more I am here. The light is up north with my girlfriend and there my head feels clear and calm. She inspires me and makes me feel whole. She is a good person and I love her so much.
I feel like staying in to keep out of the sun because I’m worried that it might inflame my headache. So I’m cowering inside like Gollum eating raw fish… well, baked ham and noodles, lol.
Dad has been too busy to take me over to my house. I need to pick up my post from there to find out what financial state the property is in so I can get advice from the CAB. Until I can get over there the future is fairly uncertain.
I miss my girlfriend and need a cuddle, especially after feeling unwell for so many days. We both seem to wilt when we are not together. I have a picture of us two on my desktop and it makes me smile, but the fact that we are apart geographically makes it somehow a sad picture.
I hope I recover fully and can get more help from my dad. I do keep asking him but he seems too busy. I’m not sure what to do on that front. He is always tired and short-tempered when he gets home so I’m never to sure whether to ask him things.
I feel more and more morbid the more I am here. The light is up north with my girlfriend and there my head feels clear and calm. She inspires me and makes me feel whole. She is a good person and I love her so much.
Friday, 7 May 2010
Fading
Just wondering if a calm loss of hope is falling over me. Like all the lights are finally being switched off. There’s no great furore, no cries of sadness, just a quiet resignation that this is the state of things.
I can’t feel any happy future because I don’t think this will ever end. It is such a madness at the heart of the matter.
But I don’t feel panicky or anxious, just tired and lethargic. I just want to shut my eyes and recoil into my mind, hide there while everything falls into the sea. Wash away.
Or maybe it’s just the anti-depressants messing with the chemicals in my brain, playing around with levels. I do feel strange, like something is buzzing inside me, something faintly electric pushing my head. Who knows.
I can’t feel any happy future because I don’t think this will ever end. It is such a madness at the heart of the matter.
But I don’t feel panicky or anxious, just tired and lethargic. I just want to shut my eyes and recoil into my mind, hide there while everything falls into the sea. Wash away.
Or maybe it’s just the anti-depressants messing with the chemicals in my brain, playing around with levels. I do feel strange, like something is buzzing inside me, something faintly electric pushing my head. Who knows.
Wednesday, 5 May 2010
"Radio Wars" alternate version
I’ve been working on an alternate tracklisting for the Howling Bells’ second album “Radio Wars” for a while and I think I’ve finally settled on a running order.
When I first bought the album my reaction was mixed and I felt that there was a stronger, more coherent work hidden beneath a confused tracklist.
The original was:
Treasure Hunt
Cities Burning Down
It Ain't You
Nightingale
Let's Be Kids
Ms. Bell's Song
Radio Wars Theme
Golden Web
Into the Chaos
Digital Hearts
How Long
To LA (bonus extra track)
I felt that there were some weak songs that could do with being removed and some challenging songs that languished unfairly towards the end of the record. My gut instinct told me that “Radio Wars” was a little “top heavy” and that the subtle science fiction concept could be brought to the foreground with the following tracklist:
Radio Wars Theme
Treasure Hunt
To LA
It Ain’t You
How Long
Digital Hearts
Nightingale
Breaking My Back
Cities Burning Down
Into The Chaos
Ms. Bell’s Song
When I initially moved To LA to the first half of the album I didn’t realise it was meant as a “hidden track” and thought it was part of the official running order, but I’ve warmed to it as part of the piece.
When I first bought the album my reaction was mixed and I felt that there was a stronger, more coherent work hidden beneath a confused tracklist.
The original was:
Treasure Hunt
Cities Burning Down
It Ain't You
Nightingale
Let's Be Kids
Ms. Bell's Song
Radio Wars Theme
Golden Web
Into the Chaos
Digital Hearts
How Long
To LA (bonus extra track)
I felt that there were some weak songs that could do with being removed and some challenging songs that languished unfairly towards the end of the record. My gut instinct told me that “Radio Wars” was a little “top heavy” and that the subtle science fiction concept could be brought to the foreground with the following tracklist:
Radio Wars Theme
Treasure Hunt
To LA
It Ain’t You
How Long
Digital Hearts
Nightingale
Breaking My Back
Cities Burning Down
Into The Chaos
Ms. Bell’s Song
When I initially moved To LA to the first half of the album I didn’t realise it was meant as a “hidden track” and thought it was part of the official running order, but I’ve warmed to it as part of the piece.
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