Flu

I have not been well since Friday. On top of everything else I seem to have been struck by a nasty bought of flu. Aches all over, dizziness and loss of appetite ruled over the weekend. The last couple of days I’ve had headaches and a sore throat.

I feel like staying in to keep out of the sun because I’m worried that it might inflame my headache. So I’m cowering inside like Gollum eating raw fish… well, baked ham and noodles, lol.

Dad has been too busy to take me over to my house. I need to pick up my post from there to find out what financial state the property is in so I can get advice from the CAB. Until I can get over there the future is fairly uncertain.

I miss my girlfriend and need a cuddle, especially after feeling unwell for so many days. We both seem to wilt when we are not together. I have a picture of us two on my desktop and it makes me smile, but the fact that we are apart geographically makes it somehow a sad picture.

I hope I recover fully and can get more help from my dad. I do keep asking him but he seems too busy. I’m not sure what to do on that front. He is always tired and short-tempered when he gets home so I’m never to sure whether to ask him things.

I feel more and more morbid the more I am here. The light is up north with my girlfriend and there my head feels clear and calm. She inspires me and makes me feel whole. She is a good person and I love her so much.