"This little toy is gonna break, break down"

I’m really struggling to stay off the booze today. I’ve not taken a sip yet, but I’m starting to make serious plans. My mood and self-esteem started to drop considerably in the middle of the night, and now I’m on the verge of tears. I even curled up on the sofa hugging my childhood teddy bear for a while.

Yeah, THAT bad.

I’ve been very good at just riding these low mood spells out this week, but this is a deep one. Like, planet core-deep. I should really write a motivational speech to myself to read at times like this. I dunno. I keep thinking about hobby stuff to do, but then I’m all like: “Oh, what’s the point?!”. Then I get really tired and have to go for a lie down.

Quite how drinking will help this, I do not know. I always manage to convince myself into doing it though.

I’m taking a break from the 2 Broke Girls boxset today, as I need something familiar and reassuring. Yup, that means I needed one of the Seth MacFarlane shows, so I’ve stuck on Family Guy. His brand of obscene black comedy really helps me get through the seriousness and utter abyssal pointlessness of life.

Good times.

Oh, I’m pretty happy with that E G Daily best of playlist now. I’ve tried to find a song worth from her third album, but I just can’t do it. The opening track is sort of ok, but “sort of ok” is hardly a personal recommendation. It’s not a bad album, per se, it just lacks a strong melody… anywhere. Also, don’t forget, her fourth album still remains absent from Spotify, so I can’t include anything from that. Maybe it’s a massive, walking, talking hit machine, but I have no way of knowing at this point. Anyway, here’s the link to the playlist as it stands:

Jim's Best of E. G. Daily Compilation

My appetite’s still a bit off. I’ve started taking double my usual diabetes medication (nurse’s orders), so that may be what’s messing with it. I’ve kept the option of a takeaway open, as I do, but I just can’t settle on a cuisine. Just nothing’s blowing my skirt up. I’ve got plenty of food in the flat, which I’m happy resorting to, but it’s a very half-hearted experience. Food is usually the one thing I can resort to, but even that seems to have abandoned me.

The deepest of sighs.

Well, I hope you peeps are staying more positive and having a rock-tastic weekend.

Do stay in touch, darlings.

Toodles!