Just a trim, please

I greet you post circumcision and feeling rather delicate and tender.

The operation was very quick and I was home by about 5pm but the recovery process is going to take longer than I’d anticipated. I’ve got a lot of stitches “down there” and a considerable amount of swelling which is very painful. I’m popping painkillers like there’s no tomorrow. I’ve been having to sleep downstairs on the sofa a lot as I’ve not felt particularly comfortable in bed… plus there’s a danger of my girlfriend rolling over in her sleep and opening up a wound and causing me lots of damage. Ouch.

So what have I been up to since the surgery? Not much. I think for the first few days I was suffering with post op depression, if there is such a thing, but I think I’m finally coming out of it and feeling a lot better. I’m still having to move around the house slowly and concentrate on my every move in an attempt not to put too much pressure on my crotch.

Nice.

Well before the surgery on Monday I was doing very well with my newly organised lifestyle. I was exercising and writing and sorting out my personal admin. But this week I’ve just been left with no desire to do any of it. I’ve gotten a bit of writing done, which is good, but I just don’t want to risk dealing with anything that might bring injury… and I know all too well that with paperwork comes paper cuts. Eek!!

Since sitting in comfortable seats seems to make the pain worse I’ve moved my laptop onto the dinner table, so I spend my time either sat upright here on the internet or lying in bed bewailing and bemoaning my situation and trying to sleep.

My girlfriend hasn’t been much help and has been acting up a lot saying she’s been tired ever since she took me to the hospital and other strange excuses for being mardy and lumbering around the house getting in the way. I’ve actually preferred it when she’s been at work so I can not worry about bumping into things she leaves lying about but I have felt quite lonely here and there so I’ve enjoyed her company in the evening and on her days off.

I must sound horrible, but I’ve just felt so grumpy since Monday.

Apparently I’m not allowed any sexual activity (including masturbation) for six weeks… SIX WEEKS!!! The first time I heard that I almost fainted, but seeing how slowly the swelling seems to be going down I think I’ll be lucky if it’s safe to do anything before seven weeks. We shall see.

The worst part is when I get erections in my sleep I wake up bleeding and in a great deal of pain. I can’t really do anything about sex dreams so I just have to pop some painkillers in my mouth if I wake up with a hard-on. Sods law I’ve been having a lot of sex dreams this week. Bloody typical!! :)

I hope this is all worth it.

Heat wave!!

The last few days has involved a lot of cooling down as the temperature has really soared. Let’s call it what it is: a heat wave. Although this morning it seems to be a lot cooler so I guess I’ll be out doing the gardening later.

Tonight I’m going to take part in a pub quiz with my girlfriend and a couple of her friends. We met up with them on Saturday and had a good time. Since it was a lunch date I drank alcohol responsibly but I think the quiz tonight will remain “dry”. I know what I get like during night time drinking sessions… not good.

We had a bbq yesterday which was nice, although some undercooked sausages may have given us tender tummies today. I received a call from our old housemate threatening to turn up later on in the evening but they never did. I’m keeping my ears open today as, well, you never know. The phone call made us all very tense in the house and provided a reminder to my girlfriend that she needs to figure out what she wants to do in life. I do too, of course, but her situation is more volatile at the moment.

Because my girlfriend’s been off for the past five days I’ve not had a chance to do any music recording. Not that I would have in this heat, but it’d be nice to have the option. I’ll try and get two demos done before I head back to college next week.

I’ve bought some new clothes that are more befitting the summer months. They look quite nice and hopefully make me look a little less out of place. I also bought some new trainers which I’m getting used to… I received a nasty blister the other day during an evening walk around the block, ouch!!!

I’m meant to research work experience placements while I’m off but I’m not sure where to look or how far down the line I’m meant to go in terms of contacting people. I might look into the local universities and colleges to see if they have music departments I could work in. That would be cool.

There’s some leftover special fried rice in the fridge from the takeaway we had last night (yes, after the bbq, eek) which I quite fancy for breakfast. Naughty boy!!

I’m really getting into the Band of Brothers dvd box set while I’m off. It’s a proper period-drama-for-boys and is as good as I’d hoped it would be. I might even buy it in the shops as it’s only about £20 at the moment.

Well, I best start putting the day into motion…

Handymen, assassins, playwrights and aliens

Yesterday I signed on for hopefully the last time for four months as I should start college in less than two weeks. Apparently I’m getting some pro-forma in the post to fill out, erm, yippee. My last signing went rather smoothly. I mentioned that I’ll need to change my job search agreement when I return from college as I’ll be looking for music and media related stuff. We shall see how that goes.

My girlfriend and I had a nice night in for Valentine’s Day. I bought her a card, some chocolates (most important!!) and some bath stuff from Lush. She seemed to like it. I got a card and a bottle of wine from her. Not sure when I’ll drink it though. We watched some episodes of 30 Rock together but then she seemed to really feel the cold and had to sit on the sofa with a duvet wrapped round her. I let her go to bed and warm up and after a while I joined her. Nothing romantic happened once I was up there, but it’s not like I was in the mood or awake enough anyway.

I bought a new guitar lead from a music shop that’s just opened in town. I can’t hook up my effects board without it. I’m looking forward to trying it out. Am I sad for getting excited about testing a piece of wire? Yes, ok, maybe I am.

We’ve got our usual handyman in fitting a rail for the shower curtain. There was a temporary one that was just spring loaded onto the wall. It was rubbish but did the job. I’m not a big fan of babysitting workmen, but what can you do. For some strange reason my girlfriend never books them to come out when she’s in the house. Funny that.

I bought Luc Besson’s Nikita in a charity shop in Scarborough the other day and started watching it yesterday without the subtitles on. My eyesight’s so bad now that it’s too hard to read subtitles so it’s easier for me just to guess what’s going on. I know the Nikita story pretty well anyway, so I’m not too fussed about he fine details. It’s nice to watch a foreign film for a change, rather than reading it.

I’m trying to think of ideas for plays that me and my girlfriend can write and perform together. She gets sudden bursts of motivation for doing things but when it comes round to actually doing them she manages to find herself feeling ill with a vague malady. Oh well, I try to be as positive as I can and always sound up for trying new things.

We’re going to the cinema tomorrow with some friends to see that new Pegg/Frost film “Paul”. Apparently it’s getting mixed reviews, but I wouldn’t expect anything more/less from those two. It sounds like a three star film, which will do me fine. I hope there aren’t too many kids and teenagers at the screening as I can’t handle the noise and threat of being teased.

I think the handyman’s arrived, so must go and tend to that…

Travelling without moving

It’s all quiet on the old housemate front… but for how long? She made some angry and confused/drunk phone calls about her benefits and the house but things are now eerily quiet. I’m sure things will kick off again soon. We keep putting the chain on the door when we’re in the house so she can’t sneak in. Just had a call from her doctor checking that this was the right address for her but I said she’d moved and we haven’t got any forwarding details.

I’ve finally got my criminal record clearance through for college. It was all clean and spotless as expected. There’s been no word from the college, but I’ll give them a call today. Fingers crossed the next time I sign on will be my last for a while.

We went to Scarborough for the day yesterday, which was really nice. The weather wasn’t great but we enjoyed ourselves regardless. We had a nice lunch and played on the penny arcades. My gf had a bit of a panic attack and felt down but then seemed to level out. I got a bit frustrated as I’d hoped the day would take her mind off things. We took the coach up (£10… cha ching!!) so it was pretty easy going.

I need to clean the bathroom as it’s getting really icky. I hate going in there and using the toilet. We’ve got a workman coming to fix a new shower railing and I feel guilty about him having to see the state of the room. Not sure I’ve got time to do it today, but I’ll get it sorted. I hope.

I’ve still not heard from my dad. If he’s moved then he’s not furnishing anyone with a forwarding address. Oh well, we’re a troubled lot so I can understand if he wants to see the back of us.

I’m still in contact with my old friend from college and we have great chats on the phone. My gf isn’t used to me having friends so she gets a bit “funny” about me talking to him for so long. She’ll have to get used to it as she’s got loads of close friends that she talks to for ages and meets up with all the time. I might go down and meet up with him before I start college.

Anyway, better go and listen out for the door…

Old friends, old enemies, old problems

Well our old housemate decided not to move back in... I'm not sure why, but it still wouldn't surprise me if they turned up on the doorstep at the end of the month.

I've still not had my clearance through to start college. If it comes through in the next week or so then I'll start at the end of Feb. I'm getting fed up of waiting.

I got back in touch with an old friend from college. He rang me yesterday and we had a long chat for about two hours. It was great because we're now both into guitars and had more in common than last time. I have missed him over the years, he's a great guy.

I'm starting to record a medley using a click track. I want to warm myself up for starting my music course. I'm having a lot of fun.

My gf and I are going to the theatre tomorrow, which I'm not really looking forward to. Can you think of a way I can get out of it? Eek!!

I'm trying to do more exercise. Fingers crossed I can keep it up.

I've managed to get my gf into 30 Rock, which is cool. It is top aces. I'm going to order the third series on dvd.

Right, better be off, see ya!!

Invasion of privacy and exit strategies

Well Christmas was pretty rocking and New Year’s was aces as usual… I highly recommend watching Return of the King right before midnight strikes, it puts you on a total high.

I’ve still not started at college yet as my security checks are stuck at one of the many stages. It’s very frustrating to find myself in limbo again.

Our old housemate has decided to move back in again (did they ever really leave? Hmmm) with their partner which will be very awkward. I’m hoping I’m no longer here by the time it happens. I just wish my girlfriend was more assertive and aware of her legal rights, rather than fumbling through arguments with a person she can’t deal with. The uncertainty about this house has gone on for too long, things need to change. I no longer feel safe and secure in my own home. That wandering instinct has begun to rear it’s head once again. I want out of here. I just hope to gawd I get a start date soon. I can’t take this morbid feeling of approaching doom.

I’m trying to develop ideas for stories with the hope that when I go away to college I’ll be inspired to actually write the damn things. I seem to be watching more movies than listening to music at the moment. The music I do listen to tends to be film soundtracks and classical music. I hope I level out and begin listening to rock again by the time I start my music course.

I’m trying to do more exercise and eat a little healthier as I’ve really put on weight recently. It makes me feel good when I do get involved in physical activity. We’ve just bought a Mr Motivator dvd which I used to do when I was a teenager and he’s very good. We tried Zumba but it was crap and really confusing. Not for beginners or the uncoordinated like me.

I could really do with a half day…