Eaten From The Inside

EATEN FROM THE INSIDE

The value and weight
Obstacle and temperament
Bleeding hearts and ravenous sentiment
I know the battlements are raw

A summary of pursuit
I see happiness and dispute
Lay the boundary and walk the path to honest rebellion
Faint praise, no less

But ponder graciously
The history is murderous and a banquet
Inquire at the longevity and breadth of wit
Do not shake a fist at failure

Redemption is my matter at hand
I am accustomed to terror and violence in speech
The plot thickens but oil laps at the shores
Given a good reason a hand will turn to fist

The inklings of success and a misguided youth
You see it now?
My wide eyes and serious walk
Casting glass on pits and fissures

I like the air of calm
A storm can only be seen behind
Is this motion pulling at me?
Am I graceful enough to travel?

The latter years of softness but confusion always
Needs must, though
Forgive my arrogance
Hold a flag for the oncoming hero, he only feels the rain

Books and papers, signs and symbols
Dreams, I believe
Smash away at rocks and numbers
Toil in the caves and upon the steeple

Shine and matte the walls
I shall escape no more
A doldrums has captured me
Chains of lead and ink hold with awkwardness

The network of spiders and worms scurry in my ear
I hear the trickle of lies
A shiver is cutting at the calm
A desire is a heavy sack to lurch with

The roads are not swept with brushes
See the indecision, see the sadness
The wrong road leads to devils
A dead end might lie in your wake

The wails crash on rooftops and scares the crow
Wind is due east
Crowds and polished morality
A shuffle of bone and the click of false suits

I am invisible to the laughter and the pain
Beauty is not a doorway I lean on
Clawing inside a coffin runny with poison and destitution
Say nothing to me, no words

I am a skin of dust and cut off
The bubble shrinks and the cold eases in
Callous destroyer, please end it
End the gasp and the biting tooth

A fondness for a northern track
Lumbering over rail and tram
The change is sweet and must follow a bitterness
Keep me entertained, devils

But you will not let me go
You splinter and lay waste my escape
I will cast you off, but I fear the hour is late
Betrayed!!