Rock, the blues and heat wave

I’ve been trying to record “proper” vocals directly over the song templates. Not sure how it’s going as I haven’t listened back yet. There’s so much to do and it’s so exhausting that I thought I’d just blitz record and then edit what works after the fact.

Since I ran out of anti-depressants at the weekend I’ve missed a couple of days so I’m worried that it’s already affected my mood. I have felt quite low over the last few days. I don’t think that would set in after missing so few though.

I’m off back up to Sheffield today. Not looking forward to the journey. It looks overcast so goodness knows how the weather will turn out. I’ll pack (heavily) for every eventuality I suppose.

I’ve been quite lethargic this week and not felt like facing much. That’s why I’m wondering if missing the medication has affected me. I’ve begun to feel despair again and morbid sometimes. Maybe being up with my girlfriend will make me feel positive about things. We both need each other.

Since it’s been so hot I’ve been staying in a lot and am worried I’ve put on weight. I do feel a lot bulkier. Oh well, it’ll cool off soon and I’ll be complaining about the cold.

The future feels uncertain again.