Back out west

Well I’m back at college. I’m trying to work on my own music project in the hope that it will force me to learn something. The lecturers seem keen to set me on something productive so everybody’s happy. I just hope I have the confidence to work on music I’ve written myself and be able to master the studio equipment.

It’s weird trying to work on my music in public away from my home comfort zone. I don’t know why I get shy about it as I’ve recorded in front of friends and relatives before and it never bothers me. I don’t know why college staff/students are so different. I think it’s just me that’s different, not them.

I’m slowly adjusting to being back in halls of residence again but I’m attempting to keep a low profile this term. I’m not going to go out drinking on “school nights” anymore and will try and get the most out of being here in an academic sense.

I’m also going back to my old work diet: no breakfast; no lunch; and whatever turns up at dinner. I’m not checking the college menu obsessively like I was last term which was making me hungry. I’ve stocked up on healthy-ish snacks in my room which should stop me ordering takeaways and loading up on sandwiches in the canteen.

I had a good counselling session today and I think I was able to explain my fears and concerns concisely. I always worry that I won’t make sense, but I guess that’s the whole point of going... to try and make sense of all my confused thoughts and feelings.

I keep forgetting to look for a new external dvd drive for my laptop as my current/old one is on it’s last legs and takes ages to get going. Sigh. All I do out of hours here is watch dvds, so I could do with a better one. Fingers crossed I can get a cheap one that’s still better than my knackered one.

The weather is very erratic at the moment and it’s hard to know how to dress from one minute to the next. You can go for a sunny walk in shorts and a t-shirt and come back soaking wet. Weird.

Righty, must go watch Friends... (on dvd of course... slowly lol)