An unstable environment

My strange mood persists. I am starting to wonder whether I am coming down with an illness. I am burping a lot too, which sounds ordinary, but it certainly does not feel that way. I am having to urinate a lot too. I must have gotten out of bed to do so about twenty times last night.

Speaking of which, I think I am entering another insomnia phase. I predict my sleep pattern will be inverted quite soon. So, yes, more 1 am breakfasts and 4 pm bedtimes. I shall not turn to drink this time though, as it has become clear that the very cause of these inverted sleep patterns will be its very own cause. I simply have to wait it out.

I am feeling less bad tempered than I was yesterday, but not completely passive. I fear I may have the odd moment of diva behaviour throughout the day. I refer you to the postscript on yesterday’s post.

I have had a grocery delivery this morning, so there are plenty of ingredients for recipes in the fridge. I am planning on making that Lamb & Roasted Vegetable Medley that I enjoyed so much a few weeks ago. I do not think they have included the mushrooms I ordered, which is a shame. I suppose I can add a bell pepper, but that will moisten the rest of the vegetables perhaps a little too much.

I got rather anxious before the delivery arrived as, around 5 am, I received a text message telling me my cheaper delivery subscription had been suspended. Apparently my card had been declined, so I nervously checked my bank account, only to find its balance healthily in the green. It seems there is a separate payment method section on the supermarket’s website just for your delivery plan, which is baffling. This section had an older card saved. I had originally gone to my account’s main payment method, which all looked fine. In a million years, I would not have thought that their site was broken up in such a way. It feels like a government-style screw-up, but this is a private, profit-making multinational corporation, not a bunch of lazy civil servants sitting around making as least effort as possible before home. Quite why the supermarket’s website, or indeed the company itself, does not communicate with itself, is vey troubling indeed.

Well, mildly troubling. The life and loves of a supermarket are a little out of my caring range, I am afraid.

Anyway, I’ll sort out all this nonsense later. I am about to go on the exercise bike, but I am not terribly confident it is a good idea. I am feeling rather weak, which ties in with my concern that I may very well be coming down with an illness. Perhaps I should give it a miss today.

I have just started watching Spirited Away. As mentioned previously, it is possibly me least favourite of Miyazaki’s films, but I am committed to giving it a go every now and then. I am watching it in Japanese, as I recall even the English dub leaving me baffled. Let us hope that the filmmakers can communicate to me the story and its characters’ thoughts and feelings and motivations through visuals alone.

I could really do with my poor eyesight having one of its better days.

I made another Kinderen voor Kinderen playlist on Spotify last night. There really is some life-changing music in there. It is the best music the world has never heard. I believe there is prejudice against it due to a) its foreign language and b) the age of its singers. But, hey, it has been helping me fight my low mood attacks, so I am okay with it. If you find something that just gets you through the day without resorting to morbid actions, then you should embrace it.

Right, I shall go and set the exercise bike up and see how I feel. It is very cold today, so perhaps that is what is making me feel weak.

We shall see.

Do stay in touch, darlings.

Toodles!