Night beats

3 am. Can’t sleep. Did get up at midday yesterday though.

Listening to Guided By Voices in bed. Glad I’m back into them, however briefly. Made some more playlists to combine their prolific output. Just listening to “their” iffy Do the Collapse period. Probably the nadir of Bob’s career.

Ruined a basic egg & chips dinner earlier. Only I can do that. I should keep such dishes simple. Just can’t seem to get anything right these days.

Throbbing headache.

Had a nice wank before bed. One of those wanks where you put off the orgasm for as longs as possible, since you’re having such a good time.

Not sure whether to get up or try sleep again. May have to blow off personal admin plans later/tomorrow. That blood pressure log will never get posted. Just wanna get drunk.

All quiet. It’s like the world has ended. Wouldn’t that be lovely? To be the only person alive. All alone. Forever.

Bliss.

Head in hands. Frustrated at myself. Nihilistic. Why bother, huh? It’s all pointless.